Check out my most popular video on YouTube!

Search Puerto Banus in Youtube and you'll find @Candice Curtis as the number one video! 

Scripted and with no autocue, the talk of the town at the time! 

Presented whilst still recovering and actually still pretty ill by my current standards

Whilst I've been away from blogging....

One thing I will mention whilst I am on-line at the moment, is my new found love for Photoshop, namely CS4. Whilst having to rest I also had to be running my equestrian business for an income and during this time I decided to start to learn Photoshop to help myself keep my advertising costs to zero.....So I went about learning Photoshop..... properly and thank god for Youtube! Fantastic tutorials on everything and anything you want.... more about other tutorials later... Photoshop and some of the other programmes in the Master Collection Suite 4  from Adobe are super fantastic! I am on a learning curve with a few of the programmes at the moment but Photoshop lead the way as you can produce so much of want you want in this programme.

I will jump ahead in my training development and speak a little about transforming myself into an AVATAR! As you can see from my background picture it turned out quiet well! 

Here is a clear picture of my finished AVATAR.

AVATAR Candice!

I have the various steps I took to get to this picture

 if anyone is interested let me know and I will add them for you to see! 

I may even make my own video for YouTube... you never know! 

Comments will help me decide!

The above AVATAR was my second attempt. 

Here is my first... 

which do you prefer?

AVATAR Candice first attempt

I have mentioned all of this because:- 

• Firstly it will explain the background picture to my blog! 
• Secondly one of the main things I have learnt whilst I have been healing my self back to health, is that creativity 'does' make you happy, it allows your inner self to breathe. When you are concentrating on your creative project at hand, your mind is blank and your ego is at it's lowest vibration. You are expressing your inner connection and the effects of this is the inner peace that fills you and floods you with an inner joy that brightens up your day with every further step of achievement gained.  No matter what your medium I certainly recommend taking some time at least a few times a week. To just STOP. 

• STOP what you are doing

• STOP talking to those around you

• STOP and be with your self ....

• STOP and be in silence......

• STOP and listen to your breathing........

• STOP and listen to the world around you

• STOP and look at the veins in the leaves, not the leaves on the trees

• STOP thinking and munching back over scenarios and made up problems

• STOP thinking and role playing and repeatedly analysing

• STOP thinking and complaining and blaming

• JUST

• STOP

Once you've mastered how to STOP life becomes rosie, as if tinted through love spectacles! Seriously! Wouldn't you rather see life through the eyes of happiness and joy no matter what your current situation around you holds? Well, learning how to STOP is the beginning of a long long process of self development. I will be talking more about all of this in future posts but for now, if you have something you love to do that is creative, whether you enjoy cooking, gardening, reading (which in turn means you truly must have a go at writing for your self!) art, dancing, design, cloths making, photography (come on.... we are all photographers!) We all love taking photos, so play around with them in a programme you find easy to use and see what you can create! Whilst times are hard these types of presents not only save your bank balance but they are more cherished and thought highly of than anything you can buy. Something you put your creative loving touch to will be worth more than it's weight in gold to the receiver. Remember that! 

So as you can see the list for your creativity is endless, whether you like making mud castles or recycled art from your weekly garbage, if you feel it and think you can create it, get on with it!! 

Procrastination is the root of so many failures in our lives. 

Think about it... 

How many 'IF only's' do you have floating around in your head?

On that note I will love you and leave you.

It's time for me to STOP now!

Good night!

XCX

Getting back on Track......

Hello everyone!

I've finally come back to my blog after a long break.... I don't know if anyone pays attention to this blog but I have decided to enjoy posting about my progress again.

I have been through all sorts since my last post and I will not have a quick catch up speeding past everything. Instead I will explore what tickles my fancy on any given day. Eventually covering the vast amount of information that I have learned over this amazing yet intense experience.

To get my self back into posting again I will explore the new blogger app's and see how I can play with the html to create something unique for my blog.

I have so much to tell but for now, I just want to say a big hello to the world and a big hello to my fellow bloggers. I look forward to hearing from you all again soon!

Kindest regards
Candice

Good News

Hi there everyone, I apologise for the lengthy departure from my blog but I have been continuing my healing and sitting down to write the blog hasn't been a main priority. However I am so much better now that I can happily tell all of you how I have healed my self from Crohns Disease.

There has been many factors such as the help my holistic doctor, the work I have been doing on my self, growing and learning, adapting and constantly working on my ego. Now I have a new factor that is proving to be very helpful is Frequensea. This is a fantastic product, a complete whole food, taken as a supplement it is a liquid that is completely absorbed by the body - unlike conventional supplements that are mostly wasted due to the lack of absorbtion qualities. Frequensea is a completely natural product that is made from phytoplankton, which contains over 200 sea veggies and it is combined with the best of the plant life.

FrequenSea's proprietary blend of:, Ionic Sea Minerals, Sea Vegetables, Herbs, Aloe Vera, Astaxanthin Sea Algae, is carried naturally in Cranberry and Blueberry concentrates with a twist of Lime, providing the best that land and sea have to offer. Only organic, pure and clean materials are used.


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People have asked "How much do I need to take?" The answer that depends on you. FrequenSea is a whole food. Taking it is like eating an apple or banana. Each apple or banana has a different specific amounts of nutrients. Your body determines what you need. The maintenance dosage is 1 ounce per day. If you are under stress or dealing with poor health, your body may require more. I've heard of some persons taking 4-6 ounces a day.That's ok. It won't hurt anything. Think about this, can you really eat too many apples or bananas? The same is true for FrequenSea. It is a whole food.

Some have asked "How long will 1 bottle of FrequenSea last me?" That depends on you & how much you take. Also, how many persons are drinking from the same bottle. It can last 1 week or it can last 1/2 month. One bottle is 16 ounces. That's why it might be wise to order a larger amount at the wholesale rate.


What does it taste like? Because of the Blueberries, Cranberries, & twist of Mexican Sweet Limes, it tastes like a fruit juice. Easy to drink. Some persons though, who don't like fruit juice prefer to mix it with water.

I love the taste of this product, I have my 60ml a day (as I'm a 5'7 light to medium weight girl) split in about 4 large glasses of water a day. My mother has the same but with fizzy water and ice. My father and grand parents have it in the shot form. We all enjoy the taste of it and everyone we give some to to try absolutely loves the taste as well! My mother and I actually miss the drink when we haven't had it for a while, like when we've been out all day - we are going to over come this by taking a bottle of water with Frequensea in it, with us whist we're out of the house. This however hasn't become part of our routine yet. I'm just in the process of moving to Marbella and starting to work for 3 days in the office of solchannel, working in the sales department until such time as I can live off the presenting. Check out some of my presenting in my latest videos on www.solchannel.com

Here is a commercial I did about 6 weeks ago.

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What do you think? Not bad for someone who has been an ill girlie for quite some time!

Here are some of the videos I did during my healing, way too prematurely but hey we all have to learn from our mistakes. In this video I was literally screaming the place down from the pain of my haemorrhoids and fistula. I couldn't sit down from the pain from my bottom and I was fighting against an intolerable level of physical pain and exhaustion that when off camera I was in another world. Distant eyes gazing through everyone and every thing to the beyond, a place where getting through it is the only direction and everything else is blurry. Anyway luckily I managed to pull myself together to shoot and complete this video. The light was against us as you will see and pay attention towards the end as I make a blooper which we keep in at the very end. The tension release of my laughter at the end was so immense I continued to laugh for about 5 minutes... hysterical and weak and even more hysterical mixed with relief that once I calmed, I managed to shoot the ending that you see first, the correct ending without the blooper!!! Enjoy and let me know what you think!

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So what do you think, could you spot the different coping levels?

So now boys and girls I'm going to explain what is so BAD about pushing your self like I did that day - whilst I was still healing after so a drastic collapse and many years of illness. I'm not talking about pushing your self to meet your dead line when you have a cold. I'm talking about serious illness and that to heal you MUST REST. Well I didn't understand this for all of my life with Crohns until the collapse (see earlier blog posts). Now I understand my body and I listen to what it's telling me. It's actually quite fun trying to become better and better and to spot the earliest of signs that the body gives you. Healing really is life altering and so much fun. That's why Frequensea is a perfect addition to my healing programme as I find it so tasty and I can feel the rewards in the way I feel, so much more happy and positive (and that's coming from one of the most positive people you'll ever meet!) - see there are so many levels of emotions in experience that we 'programmed' people don't ever experience AND once you can control of your EGO in all situations and let your higher self have a chance at life, things get really interesting...... but that's another story. I'm off to bed, hope you've enjoyed this post and let me know your thoughts on life and healing and what I've mentioned. Ciao for now!
XCX

So do you want to cure your Crohns Disease?

If your at a place where you simply WILL not live in a surviving suffering manner any longer, then you're in the right place. I am going to tell you how I have managed to cure my self of Crohns disease. This isn't for the faint of heart, the natural way to recovery is a long, slow, painful path but it also brings with it a greater awareness, that will change your life for ever. If your poor little body is suffering from a disease all it means is that your body is in dis - ease. You know perfectly well that your body can heal itself. If you cut your self what happens? Your body heals itself through it's particular method of healing all the damaged tissues and cells. Your body replaces ALL it's cells (accept brain cells, unfortunately these are at their maximum when you're born and they are the only cells that do not replicate and replenish them selves. So look after your brain!)However for the rest of your body you basically have a brand new body every 7 years! Thats something to think about when the medical doctors tell you, "today is your best day, tomorrow will always be worse and you can never be cured!" You now KNOW that your body WILL be brand spanking new in 7 more years, so hadn't you better set about reprogramming your cells to create healthy cells and not replicate the damaged ones. Your body is a very intelligent system and it wants to be healthy, when your body starts to break down in a physical sense, with a dis-ease it's only your poor body trying desperately to tell you that things are not in-line and working in harmony. It's telling you in the best way it knows how "Huston we have a problem" and as nearly everyone on this planet - well in the western world, is brain washed and programmed in a way as to readily accept the 'pills for cures'. What most don't seem to want to realize, is that pills are 'the latest cure' for the result of a problem, you can't cure the problem just by stemming is symptoms. If you want to get to the route of the problem you have to find the cause. Now most causes are to do with experiences in your life that have thrown you out of center. Out of connection with the universe. The universe is energy just as we are and we are all connected. So when you become disconnected and out of sorts with your body, mind and souls harmony then the blocked energy manifests into a physical problem, in the hope that the driver of the machine, our over enlarged brain and ego, will notice and take action to rectify the problem by seeking out the cause and dealing with it. Most causes are things that happen to you in childhood and obviously they are not good experiences! They are experiences which 'let you down', parents divorce, abuse - physical and mental, abandonment and so on. When your facing your problems the thing is to remember that no one is to blame and the past is just the way it is, it has shaped you to the person you are today but if your ready to face the thing(s) that have been causing the demise of your body, then look at who you have become! Everyone is a reaction of their up bringing, so in theory we are all acting by reacting to reactions who have been created by reactions and so the list goes on. No one is to blame accept yourself. You allowed yourself to be effected by what ever experience threw you out of alignment. Yes you were a child and it also wasn't your fault. Now is the time to face the music and realize that the only thing that matters, is you can change the future and it starts when you understand what happened to you to cause the energy to block and manifest in a dis - ease. Acknowledge and learn and then move on. Now another key ingredient to realigning yourself is to find a natural doctor who works with energy - who can see the chakras, auras and so on and with spirituality. They can realign you so that the blocked energy can flow freely. When this happens it means they have helped you by removing the blockage which the trauma of your experience caused. Once this blockage is free moving again then you no longer have 'the problem' anymore and you can start allowing your body to heal itself. It's as simple as that! No need for drugs! You don't seriously think that we would have been put on this amazing planet as the superior mammal, with bodies that NEED synthetic drugs to 'heal' them selves. If you do, you really should take a long hard look at yourself and be ashamed! So now you know about this valuable information what are you going to do about it? Are you going to heal your self of are you going to continue suffering because if you chose to continue suffering the medical doctors are right, 'YOU WILL NEVER GET BETTER' and in my opinion your are STUPID. Now I chose to heal myself without the use of any drugs including painkillers accept marijuana. I had found over the years with Crohns disease that the best form of painkiller was marijuana, as I couldn't take most painkillers because of the crohns and the ones I could (accept morphine - which I had during my operation and worked to a degree but couldn't live on) didn't work as well as a good old bit of weed! Now when you use it for medicinal purposes your not using like the masses are, to get high. Your using it to dull the senses enough to blur the pain, to make it more comfortable. You tend to have a spliff over hours rather than minutes! My choice of healing with a huge amount of suffering and pain was my choice and you don't have to take the ultra hard road, you can help yourself with your old favorites.....pills. However if you want to give your body the best chance always ask the natural doctor for his/ her advice and where possible use natural remedies and herbs. I have been advised that Saffron, Turmeric and Aloe Vera are very good in aiding Crohns suffers as they are anti inflammatory and anti bactericides. The great thing with saffron is although it is expensive to buy, the Spanish use it in Paella which is so readily available all over Spain at both lunch and dinner time! Those of you wanting to join me here for your healing in my treatment center can look forward to home cooked paellas with saffron to aid your poor bodies! Also Aloe Vera - well we have the plants here! So you can use the actual gum from the plant for wounds and there are a few good outlets over Spain who make the product of the natural plant into a palatable drink! Turmeric, well I believe this is used in curry's and most of us Crohnees don't dare to have curries! So at least those of you who love a good old curry can be assured that if you order it with Turmeric in, then you'll also be aiding your body - although I would recommend this to be something that you can look forward to once you've healed yourself and then you have the added knowledge that the Turmeric is a good herb for your digestive system even when your eating your favorite curry! Now the most important part that all patients need to realize is that when your ill you need to REST. Not watch TV, not play or work on the computer, you CAN read and you MUST shut up your internal dialog. Your body needs peace and quite to be able to function with all cylinders. If your brain and ego are muttering things to it all the time how can that be providing it with peace and quite to heal in? You are your own governor of how fast or slow you will heal. You have your own speed and rhythm at which you will heal but you can significantly help your self by following the guidelines I will lay out for you over my blog. These guidelines are only from my own experience of healing myself, your journey will be different as it is your journey but there maybe similarities and methods that you will find interesting and maybe even useful on your path to enlightenment and health. YOU CAN HEAL YOURSELF.

Sorry i've been away

Hi everyone. Sorry I've been away for 8 months. I unfortunately had to completely rest and by this I mean no TV, no work of any kind and I had to stop thinking, all thinking! I will tell you all of my ups and downs, trails and trivializations of this healing time that I have taken. So here goes.... When I left you all on the cliff hanger of what was 'so great', I had just been to see a natural doctor. Physically - (over the first few weeks of seeing the doctor) I had been pouring with blood when i went to the loo (for a about a month) and I was going to the loo about 40 times per day/ night. I had lost so much weight I even thought I was really skinny! and my skin was grey, I already looked like I was dead! The doctor did in fact say I was almost dead, a few more days and I wouldn't be writing this now. Luckily for me I managed to see the doctor just in time and it wasn't for me not knowing about him, that it took this path. I (to my detriment and benefit) am a very stubborn person and although I had had this doctor's telephone number for about 1 year prior to contacting him, I had to reach a 'place' where I was ready to see him. Things in life are strange and wonderful and it takes nearly dying twice to be awakened. I (if you remember my Crohns history) took myself off my medication about 6 years ago. I did this because I wanted to know what I was like without the medication. I had been feeling well for a while and I wanted to know if I could come off the drugs. The drugs where killing my bone marrow and had various other side effects. So, I weened my self off them over 6 months - 1 year (without the doctors permission as they said I could NEVER come off them) and I survived well enough until this collapse. I class it as a collapse now rather than the flair up that i mentioned at the beginning of the blog. As I have now lived through the experience and I am writing it with hindsight and a greater knowledge. For the last few years I had unknowingly pushed the limits of reality to extremes. I was living at such a speed that to think of it now is truly boggling. I had about 20 different internal dialogs going on in my head at any moment. I was always multi multi tasking, planning, organizing and working. I was working physically and mentally all day and night. I rarely slept. When I was too ill to ride and do physical things I would hang off my bed working on the laptop, designing websites, writing this blog! etc... All I knew was I wasn't going to let it beat me and I had this inner need to prove to myself and the world that it wouldn't beat me and the need for recognition that I'm doing well and it's not winning. I truly thought that if I didn't stop it wouldn't win..... How ignorant I was!

Wow have i got news for you!

I truly can't believe it! A few more days will confirm it but I'm feeling so much better, almost as if the main problem now is the system fixing itself! Seriously if this flair up has really calmed down which I'll know in a few days, then I really have some mad news for you! The last 24 hours have been so long I can't believe it! It's amazing I've done so much! Wow is all I can say! However I am so pooped from this last 24 hours which is great, so I'm gonna leave you with this...

I've just had a cadbury's cream egg!

Will divolve all tomorrow but what I will say is "All is good in the hood, really great, truly great!"

Turning my day around continued........ and wow what a rollercosta!

Hi All, Have I got news for you! Well after writing yesterday's post I had a little sleep before giving the horses lunch at 1.30. This was the first deep sleep I'd fallen into for at least the last few months! Waking up at 1.25, I woke up to having full blown Crohns Flu. This is a terminology I have given this is not a medical terminology! Anyway, pouring with sweat and every bit of my body aching like when you have the worst flu ever! Shaking, hardly able to walk and absolutely freezing. I slowly got up and obviously went to the loo a few times, agony when sitting down, agony when physically going to the loo, the fistulas and inflammation are screamingly unbearable at the moment. Anyway I crawl up to the yard where all the horses are in as it is raining (plus even if it wasn't raining I wouldn't have been able to turn them out this morning anyway, Monday nights and Tuesday's I'm on the yard as my groom has Tuesday's off) Anyway I fed the horses and then came back down to the house, violently shaking and aching. The good thing at that moment in the day after I awoke with the Crohns Flu and did the horses. I was in a good mind set, thinking positively and knowing that the Crohns Flu onset was only down to my ego reacting to me gently pushing out of my comfort zone over the last few days - with the riding and the gym. All day I made sure that I knew that this onset was just my brat ego having a tantrum. I did however start to loose a little faith later on in the day. I knew I needed to sleep, to let the Crohns Flu pass but needless to say my active brain wouldn't allow me to sleep and I rolled around in agony, violently shaking and aching so much that I couldn't lye in a comfortable way at all. With a painful head ache as well and many pathetic loo trips! Pathetic loo trips being the ones that make you run to the loo and scream in agony only to have the smallest an amount of liquid stool to show for it. These are pathetic loo trips and not what I want or will endure. I demand proper stools when I go and that is my aim and I do try to hold what I think to be pathetic loo trips and see if I can make them pass and be forgotten until the next trip - thus making it worth while! Anyway...... Finally I managed a light sleep and upon waking I felt like I had sweated out my entire bodies water level! My bed was like a swimming pool! My hair looked like I'd just come out of the shower! But my head ache and body aches had minimalised! So, I was right, this Crohns Flu was just my BRAT EGO! Ha ha ha ha ha ha! I went to have a bath and I also had some fresh vegetable soup which my lovely daddy had made for me along with a cup of warm water and baking soda with lemon and honey. I'm supposed to have 1 level tea spoon of baking powder in warm water to drink and not to take as a shot like I did the first day! 3 times per day! Needless to say I'm not up to that amount yet. It's so disgusting! Anyway I did have 3/4 of the cup yesterday and 1/2 the bowl of soup with 1/2 a rice cracker. I also had a whole rice cracker with some soft goats cheese on top a few hours later. I also had a 2 more strawberry's through out the night. I feel that the baking soda is already working along with the strict diet and my mental attitude! Last night I was up at 01:00 and 06:00 to go to the loo and the pain of actually going is reducing. I do cover my anus with Aloe Vera gel every time I come back from the loo and when ever I get a second through out the day and night. All through every day I also cut up the fresh lemons, squeezing them in to a glass and adding slices and then I just top up with bottled water when ever the glass empties. This has helped me drink alot more than normal, i'm getting through anywhere between 1 and 2 bottles of 1.5 litres of water a day. Yesterady I also had a large carton of apple juice, I love apple juice but I found that after that much I was feeling sick so I had some more water and that sorted out the sugar levels. So what I have learned is this, apple juice is a good form of alkaline but not as good as the water with lemon juice so mix them with the higher proportion towards the water and lemon. The baking soda is disgusting but I feel it can't help but work - it makes your digestive tract have a higher alkaline level which is what Crohnees need to get better. Food - I'm just eating what I can when I want to although nothing naughty. Exercise - making yourself get up and do exercise create energy and once you create energy things FLOW to you better. Remember your mind is a very powerful thing and exercising - creating energy whilst you are saying what you want and visualising where you'll be, makes all the difference. This test alone, I feel privileged to have been witnessing first hand. The fact that I took myself out of my comfort zone (made my self go to the gym and ride the day before) and then was so severely ill the day after AND in the same day healing and proving to my self that the illness extreme was just my EGO getting up set and wanting to demonstrate this to me. I know this to be true as when I woke today I feel 1000 times better and although still feverish I have lost the intense aching and head ache and feel like I will be off to the gym again today! Again for just a light work out, I'm not trying to over do things, I'm just trying to take my self out of my comfort zone - My Crohns comfort zone is to continue having crohns for the rest of my life and to do what the Crohns disease tells me. Remember I have taken this as a huge blessing, a huge honour that I have been put into the position to finally once and for all do something about my Crohns. I will cure this flair up and then I will cure my self of Crohns. I will have harmonic wealth and I will then set up the Candice Curtis Crohns Charity where I can help all of you! I don't know about you but I am very excited to be here, here and now and be in this position. Don't worry if you doubt things I did yesterday. When in the midst of the Crohns Flu before I could get back to sleep I was crying and wondering if I was being stupid. Maybe I had pushed things too far, maybe because the first time round I pushed and pushed and had only 2 days until death until I had the operation that saved me. I suddenly wondered to myself if that was what was happening again? This fear and doubt was short lived. I called my mother to arrange an appointment with a Healing energy aligning doctor which I am seeing today at 19:00! So I will let you know how that goes when I get back! Anyway the freaking out stage was just there as another test and luckily I fell asleep and awoke feeling better, in my new swimming pool - my bed! LOL So I'm very happy that I have woken up feeling 1000 times better than yesterday. I mean yesterday I was really really ill and all due to my brat ego! So take note everyone! Right now I'm feeling kinda hungry and still feverish so I'm off to have a bath and some breakfast! I'll let you know how today goes and what I eat!

Turning around my day!

Hi All! Last night wasn't too bad i was up at 05:00, 07:00 and 08:10! So getting later - improvement! However my anus is very inflammed and has the painful the fistulas and i'm bleeding 80% of the time when passing stools. Stools have returned to toxic water which is probably the reason for the inflammation. However i was up at 08:10 feeding my 11 horses, slowly walking and greeting my babies as i gave them their breakfast. This morning i think another bath is in order and i will take some good rest this morning. I have to feed them their lunch at 13:30 and this afternoon i plan to paint some show jumps. Nice a calm exercise! I'm painting the jumps in my annex which is always enjoyable as this Friday i will receive the mortgage money in my hand all signed sealed and delivered to me in my hand this Friday, Friday 13th April 2007! Once i have this then the finishing work can begin on the annex! Very exciting getting this stage to manifest it's self. So today's diet so far - water and fresh lemon juice and slices and i am just having some yummy strawberry's 4 to be precise and i have a pear waiting in the back ground! I'm off now to get on with my day, I hope you all have a great day and i'll back this evening to fill in the blanks!

Ooo just to add a little more to todays diet!

Hey All, Ok, so I also had the remaining cucumber sticks from earlier and the second piece of goats cheese. I had opted to not eat it all in one go earlier on! I then had half of a sesame seed and honey health bar. I did have a few loo episodes with phenomenal cramps around the eating times of both of those but after a bath and some cooling aloe on my butt! I'm feeling much better and ready for bed! Night night! P.S I also increased my vitamins to 2 x all twice today!

I'm winning!!!

Hi All,

Today has been a good day. I was only up last night at 03:00 and 04:00 and then again at 08:00. I did have a little rest, lye in today, as the riding yesterday did make me exhausted! So after doing some computer work in the morning and just having water and fresh lemon, juice and slices I decided to have a small fruit smoothie - truthfully I didn't have much in! So 5 strawberry's and 2 bananas with some water made me a lovely thick smoothie (tomorrows will only have one banana and the other 4 fruit quota! It was a bit thick!!). I then had to speed down to the post office to confirm a price to send a saddle cloth over the pond to Colorado, USA. I also went to the health shop and bought some rice cakes, rice crisps, sesame seed and honey bars, soya milk - vanilla flavour (last time I tried soya i hated it but I have a good feeling this time i will ease myself into it and love it!) Some gluten free corn flakes with honey (one of my main nags after stopping dairy for most of my Crohns life was cereal, I always seemed to fancy some cereal, so I thought I'd try this gluten free corn flakes and soya milk. If I don't come to like it at least i tried!) I also bought lots of veg and fresh fruit and baking soda. Luckily enough I managed to have a surprise chat with Dr Frank Nyi just over a month ago, he is a Chinese therapist to all the stars in Hollywood! Anyway he advised that I take some baking soda for about 10 days along with cutting out the usual - dairy, wheat, sugars etc... Finally I managed to find some today! Baring in mind I have been ill! Anyway, ab-so-lut-ely disgusting! I was pretty much throwing up after I drank it, it's still giving me the 'grose judder'! However fingers crossed it will do it's job and calm all of the irritated bowls! So back to today's diet, I had the smoothy, then a sesame seed bar, then I had a few slices of cucumber and a slice of goats cheese. I then went to the gym, just a small work out only 10 minutes on the bike and 3 sets of 10 reps for the main groups of muscles on the limbs! Didn't want to over do (I have a tendency for this!) I then came back, put some sardines in the oven with some olive oil and sea salt and let them bake for about 30 mins, only turning them once. Not one to waste time, whilst i waited for them to cook i put my 11 horses to bed and then came in an enjoyed eating my sardines! I was ill about 5 minutes after with 2 strong bouts and diarrhoeas but actually diarrhoea and not toxic water! The cramps were tremendous as normal but short lived! I'm now writing this about 20 minutes on! Now I'd just like to mention if I haven't already in previous posts, made this clear. My main helping aid in my current relapse is my mental stimulation of understanding the laws of the universe and learning and researching how to implement the tools I am learning. This learning time I have also mixed in with me time. By this I mean just being with me, no TV, no radio, no people, just me on my bed, relaxing and focusing and refocusing my attention to my intentions. Let me give you the examples of today's techniques. Not just whilst I'm relaxing but every moment I check my thoughts, every moment I'm physically doing something, creating energy whilst I'm walking or riding or at the gym and even whilst going to the loo! I am focusing my attentions on my intentions. My current intentions are 1. To be enjoying a healthy happy life, where I can exercise and eat and socialise AND enjoy! 2. My mortgage money is in my hand by Friday 13th April 2007, all signed sealed and delivered into my hand by Friday 13 th April 2007, this Friday! 3. www.hinttworld.com climbs the success ladder soon making €1500 per week, orders fly into my paypal account and I enjoy packing and sending my new Hintt members their goodies! My paypal account increases to €1500 per week income very quickly and by the end of the year, December 31st 2007 my www.hinttworld.com income is €100,000. So these have been my main focus, I visualise the paypal account showing €1500. (I am just about to print off a account statement from them and write on it €1500 with the dates stating it's coming in every week!) Knowing that my mortgage will come through and I will have the cash in my hand on Friday the 13th April 2007. I'm also looking around whilst at the gym taking in sounds and smells to help me visualize aspects of my healthy fun life when I'm not actually there exercising! So my healthy happy life thoughts relate to exercise, eating and socialising and I generate thoughts of me doing the things before I actually do them. Bringing in aspects which make the intentions real, smells, sounds, feelings, breathing - when I go out on rides where the countryside is beautiful i always breathe in deeply a few times savouring being a alive! These positive thinking tools are not to be taken lightly, how many times have you thought that 'I'm trying, I'm trying but I'm just not getting anywhere? Well your the only one who has created your situation and the moment you let go and accept this, you can start travelling the fabulous road to enlightenment! Seriously any of you Crohnees out there, if you want to get better you have to start paying attention to the tools that are available to you, for you to take hold of your own destiny. I am building these tools at the moment and after having Crohns for over 12.5 years I really do know a little about the condition that I have and how things work and THIS method of growing and implementing what we've all tapped into at some point in our lives, with out even realising it. Is by far the best treatment I have ever used! My crohns journey has been of a high level of severity at all times. After nearly dying I was rushed into hospital to have an emergency op'. after the op' Crohns does not come back for around 2 years (this was what was stated at the time). Unfortunately mine came back 2 months later and with a vengeance. cutting the crohns out only aggravated it more! So after the strongest steroids and many other drugs I started to feel a bit better. More good days than bad. I mean every day has been a crohns day, pain and the loo after meals but things were getting easier and more controllable and I found I could eat what i liked- I have realised that I was lying to myself at this stage, my common saying was "Well everything makes me ill so what does it matter what I eat, I'll eat what I want when I want" Thank goodness my attitude has changed now! Talk about my ego! Anyway this ramble was just to explain that I am a good candidate to be testing how I control my crohns and how i will cure my crohns to having a healthy, wealthy and wise life! Moving back to the point "and THIS method of growing and implementing what we've all tapped into at some point in our lives, with out even realising it. Is by far the best treatment I have ever used!" We've been tapping into the energy that is all around and within us. There are no reasons why we can't cure Crohns with what the universe provides us. If your open to this and you know what you want for your life by the end of this year, in 5 years and in 10 years then the links below will provide you with some tools I have been using over these last few weeks. If you think this is a magical cure, you'd be wrong, this is a life long commitment to your self and something that you will only be a master of through solid commitment. So today I have accomplished going to the post office, health store and supermarket as well as the gym and I have had a mild day in the severity of my flair ups. So something is working! Quite a few variables today so can't be sure if anything particular has made today better, if it's all of it together or if the main conditioning has been mentally. You see I came into this bout from a good appetite phase. so I have enjoyed testing my will power. I have all my easter eggs sitting in front of me in my room and there is a kitchen full of all the naughties down stairs! So when the flip happened and my body said 'time out', I felt like a food addicts for a few days! Thankfully this passed and I am dealing less and less with my ego tempting me! A tanyism for you to think about, "The quality of your life is directly proportional of your peer groups. You become who you spend time with. Just as cells that fire together wire together, so do people." quoted from a friend Sodi Michaels Create energy for things to FLOW to you. Neurotransmitters work best when movement and intent work together. Think of a incantation and apply movement to it. This will generate energy and increase FLOW. Seriously Crohnees this is working for me, I'm actually trying it for the first time, learning and growing and manifesting. Making conscious efforts with my diet, fighting the ego that wants other foods but keeping my appetite functioning (it is diminishing but is still here!), getting up and doing things, trying to get my PH levels to a more alkaline state and lastly but most importantly growing mentally and applying my new knowledge to my physical as well as mental state. Good luck to all of you out there and please let me know what your thoughts are on what I've written! Love Healthiee!